It arrived,
Burst out
From the pregnant heart,
Life time yearnings
Shaped and formed
In sweetness of
The unbelievable
In dance of cherry blossoms
Out of the winter sun
Next to the slope of green grass
Under the echo of stone
over the golden dusts of time.
The gate opened up,
The flaxseed
Raised above the two worlds
Bloomed
In union
Disappeared quietly
In whispers of the beloved.
A vivid vision
Of the infinite fire
Everywhere on earth.
Shell crush
And thrown away,
Ah, how Serena’s pen
Convey
The magic of love
Within her heart
She is gone
From the eyes
In God’s presence.

In dance of cherry blossoms,
She smiles.

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

Walk with me,
The hours slowing down
Light brushes
The haze away.
I wouldn’t know,
I wouldn’t guess
What is about to happen
And what lies beyond
The landscapes of my heart,
I just needed to make the walk.

Between sleep and dream
When life retires
In clouds,
I call you,
My death,
Walk with me
Into God’s silence.

In my dream
We meet the ocean
Everyday
Across the Golden gate bridge,
We feed the seagulls
With walnut bread,
We look at lovers
Hand in hand,
We remember
The universe is in peace,
And the ending
of my waiting
so close,
Before the next full moon.

The abyss of my aloneness
Has passed through
Fires and tears,
The thunders
of restlessness are gone.
The hummingbird is free.
The final turn of the path
Ends
at the corner of Presidio
where silent bay meets the stars
in each wave,
My beloved God lives there.

I call you
My death,
Walk with me
Into the silent,
To sleep
In awakening bed ,
Beside the rivers
That Joined his eternal ocean.

My heart knows
She is ready
To merge,
“I “no longer know
anything.
I am no longer in my clay,
Or off this world,
I am a dust filled in light,
by light,
The anonymous prophet
Returned to a new UrShalim,
the sacred land
is where I stand.
With no name or a claim
To be crucified,
To give my life
and ask for nothing.
On the cross of
the infinite wind

I rest in forever.
Transformed in
sparkling love dust,
Hear silence
See invisible
Whirl in love
Move quietly
beyond this world.

I call you;
My death,
Walk with me
Farther than the horizons
Higher than the rainbows,
To where my beloved lives.
I lived a full circle,
With a heart full of wounds,
I made only one choice,
To love.

Behind me,
Is just a tale of a woman
Who chose or was chosen
To live as a mystic
Who was ripen in God,
Years after years,
In her heart
She burnt silently
In love,

She took all stabs
She could,
And said nothing,
just silent tears..

After million years
Climbing mountains,
valleys and hills,
She met her twin,
Image of her
Yet
in opposition,
Stretched out of t he sleep
They stole a moment from eternity
Danced together
In those endless fields of yellow tulips
Lips on lips,
embraced and burnt
in one eternal kiss.
And the next moment
The mad wind split them
In difference.

She was thrown into
The darkest places within
Naked, alone
Burnt in flames
surrendered to pain,
To death,
she died to herself,
more than once.
That is how
One is ripening
in love of God.

The world
disappeared ,
her roots
burned away.

It is the end of her dream,
Voices are gone,
The hours slowing down,
She is falling,
The ripen fruit is her heart,
She claps her hands
The child bride is dancing
Walking down the hill
Dawn will be here soon.

She is falling
into happy clouds,
The universe is in peace,
The hummingbird is free.
The feast is on.

I call you my death,
Walk with me
Into The god’s silence,
The groom is waiting
This time
is
my wedding.

Walk with me
Into
the infinite love,
where
we will be lost
and
never return.

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

I am here
Image of you,
Blooming in love
With open arms
And boundless heart,
Expanding fearless
Out of my clay
In the beating of your wings,
Going deeper
Through the moonlight,
When
Your dark
Unknown blue,
Ends.

In each breath
I journey my heart
Inside out
To meet your eyes,
To melt in your smile
To forget
Who is who?

Lost in each other
Tides move us
In and out of time,
as I rise
more naked and pure,
in flow
of our togetherness.
I feel weightless ,
And my heart flees
Higher and faster than ever,
I want to leave here
And be everywhere,
In the vastness of
out of time and space.
Like waves,
Your laws
move my nature
moment to moment,
Heartbreak after heartbreak
To that soundless state
That I know,
My aloneness is so huge
And the Earth is too small
To hold my love for you.

I need to be everywhere
And form is such a tight garment,
Free me of what I am,
And I fly with
Whatever strength I am left with.

There is no earth left for me,
There is no memory
There is no echo,
No unsettled
Account.
I lived everything,
With every cell
I had.
I made a garden
Full of verses of love,
Just let this rose
Die gracefully
In your arms
to begin
in forever.

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

no sound,
no perception,
no sweet pain,
just an empty heart,
full of love.
Rest in solitude
floating in no-thingness.

~Serena Devi~

She has passed
The flames,
Burnt
Sunk in silence
Enveloped in love.
The wholeness of creation
Is the stranger
Who has moved in.
Fog is cleared
Everything ‘ away from “
Is
In her reach now.

Hush……….
Mo more words
Between lovers,
A rapid dream happens
Inside
The sealed lips.
The dark huge ocean
Rests in her soft
Warm, welcoming shore
Open upon his touch,
Murmuring dark waves.
This joy
Is a daily weep,
Inside each other’s arms.
Between
Soft sheets of unknown
Making love,
Between
Tears and kisses
Life redeems.

The orbits of shinning stars
Pulls her closer
In depth of dark
To forget the coming verses
In his overwhelmed silence.

No house is left,
No future death is promised,
Love rushes out
From her blue veins
Covering the earth,
The sky turns red
From the dark rain.
God
Looks at her naked soul,
Pours his love
Out of her body,
The infinite soft
Tender touch,
Ends her
Beneath
The blue sea.

Everything turns dark within
Before the planted seeds
Push out of the moist soil,
facing the sun.

A full grown rose garden
Resides
inside the wind
Hums…hums
“I am the dancing tears of God.”
She falls
Like a silver drops of rain
On everything.

Beneath,
Silence grows
Love laughs
And
the new earth
begins.

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

Nothing
But this aloneness.
In the hollow
of each moment
I have lived
and
Faced nothing
but
myself.

Nothing
but
the silence.

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

I can feel you; I know you are running through me.
Sometimes I lose my sense of dimension,
seems I am floating in another world, another being.

I feel scared today, this longing, this pain been within me since I knew myself, since that moment I discovered you.
I love you and I know it won’t be any other being for me without you.

I am so detached from world; I wish I could leave this place and come back to you without wishing the death of my human’s form.

Life been so different since I found you again, I am on this boat, alone, without knowing where I am going to and don’t even care!!

You know my deepest desire, it never changed, I want YOU.

I see the beauty of life, the magnificent amazing
Magical beauty of the world around me,
in me.
But it seems deeper desire in my heart; I want to be with you all the time. I am tired, tired of waiting. What else is left to be done?

I have returned to San Francisco and my eyes search every corner of sky, every wave, every pair of eyes… to meet you again…

My darling God, I feel you presence, the closeness make me breathless, my heart wants to stop.

I know you can hear me, where this ache is coming from? This longing, there is no one here that I can talk with, no one can understand unless they have been burnt in love, the way I did and still do. The only sound in my heart is love and beyond that is your silence.

Oh Beloved, have mercy on this soul, free me, let me open my wings and fly towards you. I have
nowhere to go, nowhere to stay, no strength to carry my body, no desire to say even one more word… I want to fall in your ocean of silence and let tides carry me to heaven.

All of my life, I search for the man of my dream, when I met ~S~ in 2008 in San Francisco, it was like an earth quick, my whole being was shaking, it was like meeting myself and lost in all lives that i have lived, all emotions, that I have felt… perhaps I know a bit better now about the process of alchemy but then, it was just the beginning of my many deaths.

Since childhood, there was part of me wishing to live like others, grow up, fall in love, marry, have children and write and share my thoughts.
And there was another me, the timeless in me, the lover, the seeker, the mad soul, in love with God beyond words.. the thirst in me couldn’t be satisfied or even justified by anything else, I knew from early age, I have a journey to make, the pilgrimage of love..I knew, I won’t rest till I meet God, in the sprit and in a flesh.

In 2008, I thought, I met my twinflame and over the last few years, no matter what I heard from others, my heart kept repeating his name like a Mantra… when I arrived few weeks ago, many thoughts crossed my mind, I wrote to him with my contact details, in the same open way I always spoke ..from my heart. still no answer…
Something along the way, finished in me… the last human desire left my existence, even I do feel his presence, but his silence burnt me, week after week, years after years.
This love burnt me all the way…..
My mind made a lot of stories of this encounter, and it did took me a long time, to find a place within to stay neutral to the chatter box and eventually, silence came back…
Few days ago… I finally let him go …from depth of my being.
I have returned to my true lover, the one who I met and felt when I was 6 years old. To God.

It is always you. I chose you and I knew my life won’t be a normal one.
I searched for peace, for some kind of truth to satisfy my thirst for knowing. I changed and moved from country to another one, I met people from different backgrounds, some they knew you and some was in denial. I lived a full life and in a process, I changed to this empty place, I call her, Serena, she is more you than anything else… You are her belonging, her home, he serenity and her true passion…

I know and feel by coming back to San Francisco at this time of the earth, (End of 2011 and beginning of 2012) I am coming to the end of this journey somehow.
I only could support myself in physical for few more weeks, I know things happening for a reason, I no longer struggle with my destiny, I trust you and believe if my earth path has been so hard, It meant to make me an example in my love and faith, in You…So Be it.

My wounds are cured and my heart feels so light, I look into the ocean everyday and listen to seagulls and I feel your arms around me and your breath just touches back of my neck, as I rest more and more in your embrace. I wish, we could just fade away in You.
God, I love you and I can’t explain anymore to anyone even myself, why the threads of my life made this tapestry, it is what it is.

I am feeling alone but not sad, not lonely, just alone.. It feels like there is nothing else left from the earth or on earth for me.

Except this vivid image of US, you and I in open fields of lavender, tulips
Ah, the sunshine reflects in the river as it flows,
flock of sparrows in fly to somewhere warm
sands, trees and my buried fingers in the wind,
my burning heart in your silent love
and yes… the memory of Nobhill my meeting with my twinflame

I can feel something is about to happen, could I go through another test of my love for you,
do I have anything else to lose,
to sacrifice?
What is left except this human’s form?

I am burning in silence and I know,
from my ashes the phoenix will raise…

now, only days left…

© Serena Devi, January 2012, San francisco

—

Soul crosses all bridges
Face all dragons and demons
In hope to meet
the angel breathes within.

The unknown gates,
Humming her name,
The 21 locked gates
Connecting the 2012 pillars
All leads her to her final destination,
Self realization.
Then graceful death
In flames of Divine love.

I am at the 21 gate,
my beloved,
My unlocked broken heart
Between my palms,
I am in deep silent
Looking inside,
To hear
one
last word…
“enter”.

@Serena Devi – 29th December 2011, San francisco

The train crossed
The invisible borders
Where unshaped love
Melted
in
the fire
of unknown destiny.

Through the thin line
Of fog
Moving carriage
took the woman
to the land of silver pearls.

Birds, trees, harbor lights
The ocean beside her,
soared her to the highs
beyond hills and seagulls.
Where she met
Her tomorrows
Under the tent of night
In company of shining stars,

The Burnt candle in her heart,
covered her face in tears
To show her the invisible way
To meet
The beloved lips.

Under the golden gate bridge
Ocean flows
Wind hums
Her life time longings
To return to dust.

As the moon bends
To kiss her warm lips,
Tears falls from heaven
On her burnt heart,
Silent embraces
her broken clay.

The Beloved hawk came
pressed
his untamed desires
and conquered her soul
in his love
little by little
clouds moved her
in
their white royal carriage
to her eternal home.

The bell tolls
silent echoes
between gaps,
nightingale sings
the final love song.
As she reaches the gate,
The king
Opens
his welcoming arms.
She sighs
Ah, my beloved
“I am home.”
“I am finally arrived home.”

© Serena Devi, December 2011

I am here,
Circling in moments,
remembering
the outer line of
my dreams.

I lifted the veil,
Look into my face,
This body is not mine,
I don’t even know
how to begin,
the different me.

This new life
with no laundry bills,
No starch, no steaming, no cloth.
What happened to me?!

There are still voices
Humming between
My eyes
And What I feel,
Undiscovered needs
to ebb with current,
As the smell of blood
and burned flesh,
Leave the closet
The empty shelves
White in satins
Pulse with excitement
To hold
The new images
Of my stream.

How could I free
what waits in me
trapped in the web
of my old emotions,
How can I finish this aloneness
From dark paths to shiny hills
Every step I took,
I walked alone,
Tuning my being
To the sound of love
Inside my heart.

I am so tired
My human bones are broken,
Even though
soul laughs and dances
Somewhere, someone in me
Is waiting
to hear,
To say,
the final words…

Oh, my eternal lover
Let me go free
Like a drunken wind,
Let my branches break
And my fruit be eaten
By birds and hungry pedestrians.

Let this restlessness ends
Somewhere outside of time,
Come, come
Like a winter day,
Cover me with your snow,
And move inside my waiting,
Put your mouth on my warm lips,
Let it happens,
Let it happens
Let tell the world
Over and over,
How we met,
How we became one,
How my loneliness ended
Over the San Francisco’s hills
How, I finally met my groom,
Ah,
How finally you
said the last words.
Set my heart free
To fly forever in your love.

Oh, my beloved,
I am here,
Circling in love,
Waiting to meet
your beautiful eyes
One last time
together, forever
Come, come.

© Serena Devi, December 2011