Some days beauty is too lonely,
standing beside a chair and an empty vase
waiting for the sunset.
Some days are just too long,
you lay on your bed…
listening to falling rain,
smell of burnt candles
the empty side of bed
some days beauty is too lonely
to be a good company.
Night and moon, the radio show
and the next door cat prrrrrrrr
just before teardrops
closer to the end, the sound of sun fades away
into the dark, eyes rest.
Some days beauty is too lonely
all lights are gone
it is empty, the space, faraway lake
and the alley of memories.
The Garden of Souls -Mystic Poetry Concert and dance
Winter comes and you know its essence,…
You sit by fire and drink your coco
remember and let go.
Sleep is full of dreams; the emptiness behind each story,
Silent voice of soul points the less travelled path of heart
With nowhere to hide.
You look up, the colour of sky keeps changing
and your eyes move between shades of clouds
and flying birds,
misty sea front and the sound of running dogs
playing their games.
You mend the walls around your house,
Fences are repaired,
Noisy neighbors are gone.
could you ever feel safe again?
This dark parade and the smell of death
How many more cascades you need
To bury the old and begin “I AM”?
While the bell in your heart rings and rings
For all you ever know
You can turn your back to east or west
can live as a vagabond,
sell popcorn and exchange dreams
you can’t avoid the Truth anymore.
Mirrors will continue striking your nights
Even when you counting your blessings
The cry of wind pass through your life, loud and disturbing.
You sense the breathing of heaven behind your ear
You see the boundless sea in front
Why are you still frighten to be here, to be “You”?!
Someone whispers stories in “You” of heaviness and struggle,
someone else sings, song of shapeless, timeless
So many noises, moment of peace please!
You rest deeper into your heart,
Feeling everything, trusting the sense of not knowing.
Tide rises, tide falls,
vicious wind always have a story to tell,
Sea is the never the same.
Are you safe?
Could you be happy with no need to feel safe?
Trees look at God everyday
seagulls fly over his house
roses bloom under his smile.
Come back to earth,
Stars like magnolias; shall rise from your heart,
Winter is sacred, plant the seeds of your tomorrow
Moment by moment,
With care, patience, reverence and love.
Heaven is the satisfied taste of your hunger
against the earth’s sweet and bountiful breasts of life.
Come back to earth,
rest in roots of your fears and doubts
You shall rise as a tree,
always meeting God.
© Serena Devi January 2015
Years pass and we wonder where we are heading, are we truly happy and fulfilled, is this joy, peace and love is totally free of dependency to outside world, could we go on without having a lover, home and security, could we truly stand as soul not knowing, just being.
When we truly stand as a soul and not a body, memories and relations, we see and know we are utterly alone and what seems real and tangible is just a fragment of our awareness appearing in form. Flowing and changing as our every moment attention moves from one subject / object to another.
Over the years, between what we think or want know and what will never be known by our mind, we begin to seek something deeper to feel connect with, if this is not the other person, or the event, or sky or even God, so what is it here that can give us a sense of purpose and meaning, we invented a word LOVE, for what we cannot see but deeply want to believe and associated with.
Love has become a symbol of all that is pure, beautiful, and happy and also we hope it is tangible. We romance one another, we give names to other (beloved, other half, twin flame). We sell online courses and products for Sacred Union, how to meet your true love, how to be more juicy and open in sexual activities. How to heal this and that, how to embrace the shadow and the list goes on and all on line … easy to access and become a master or a facilitator, just enroll and pay monthly….and then we give you a couple of weekend retreat and off you go… live happy ever after…
I used to believe all sort stories of success that people told and shared via books, Facebook, seminars, about how they met their Twin flame, their Beloved, while every day I witnessed, they introducing a new man or woman, a new upgraded Beloved. And they keep talking about Divine Union as they already figure this out!! Something in me needed to CHANGE.
I respected all journeys and sharing… however following without taking a moment to witness your own heart and inner voice, without evaluating your own believe system and experiences is a mistake, and sometimes the heartache is so intense and deep that there is no choice but to WAKE UP. So I did.
Over the last three years, I spent most of my time in solitude, listening to silence, to feel beyond my body and mind, and experience life within without words, relations and earthy mind rooted association.
In time I noticed, it seems there is no specific way to relate to LOVE and SOUL CONNECTION. What I was buying into has been a life time stories of expert Story Tellers which in fact are lost in their own seeker’s journey and it has been my own shortcoming to bombard my intelligent and consciousness with their suggested energy healing, womb empowerment, with well-groomed packaged ideas of what UNION must look like or feel like.
It took me quite a while to forgive myself for not taking responsibility for my view and vision and belief system. The energy that feels like a life, is HERE, without any definition, or relation to tangible world. You fall in HERE, with no shape, no name, and it doesn’t fit into box of LOVE either.
It is this aloneness that is like a sky which covers and continues. And we only see it blue or feel it as love because of what reflects back in our eyes, or in our hearts. This is Soul, eternal vibration of HERE, it is the easiest way to your happiness.
Wake up to what is here which is a forever white screen of possibilities in forever river of change and transformation from invisible to visible. We are living a dream of love, it is not about having or not having, it is about being a FREE BEING.
Begin 2015 with your Being, YOU ARE PERFECT.
My heart is standing on a new edge of discovery, loving another in a new way.. freedom to be in my heart and let rays of untouched brings me down on knee, in beauty of not knowing that if this love will ever be received or returned…
I am experiencing myself in such a new way that my pen fails to express. Do I love a man or I am just falling in love with myself more and deeper?
I don’t know, do I ever needed to know, what brings such a deep sense of love, gratitude and bea…uty in this small space between my chest, when all I want is to fly higher and higher …into stardust.. so I land on his hair, at the corner of his neck… I am in awe of love again… if I ever receive another me is no longer a question or a desire… my heart is covered by roses and life pulse free, powerful and reborn within my living veins…
Ah, I am flying higher than ever in Beloveds dream….
The whole world is watching….. Love is turning me to ashes, manifesting love…
Love, the beautiful agony
glows like a full moon,
pulls like a fragrance of a lily …
releases like a sigh in a wilderness
Empties like a shadow that is gone
fulfills like the taste of a kiss
repeats, in sequences of heart’s yearnings
transforms in solitary quiet, making pearls,
inside the body of ocean,
love, the hollow between two waves,
the sound of drops
in a crystal cup
ah, love…enriches my essence,
touch and nurture my skin
I want more of this love….
flames and ashes,
dancing naked around fire
chanting my beloved name…
Ah… My Yar, my beloved,
end my burning, end my thirst
let my longing heart falls into web of your body,
Loving is the home of Now, where we are entwined
body and soul., as one
I am in love again….ah.. I am in love again…
What say you, my beloved, will you take my hand and offer your heart,
will you promise the eternal togetherness with no wall or fear, where beside each other, we sleep naked and fly with our own wings, in one direction… Truth
Will you promise your now and let my heart breaks over and over into delightful laugher….
He said ” Drop all words, let it be” let it be.
I dropped everything…and my heart shivers in your dream… come, come, I kiss your wounds and I wash the pain away.. I am You,
I am in love again….