Where am I with this “I”?



Where am I?
In my head
In my throat
In fullness of fear
Or emptiness of love.

Where am I
When others,
Telling me
how to live
my life…

Where am I with
eternal threads
of light
Expanding
In each breath
I inhale…

I know nothing is mine
Still
Part of me
cry to die.

To die, with sadness
To die, with happiness
Die, to wake up
In another me.

To die from vastness
Of noise
In my head.

Die, to fall in love
Die, to be in silence.

Part of me cry to die
so ache keeps love alive.

Where am I
with the black hole
Unfulfilled desires
Blanking my sight.

Am I the knower?

I could no longer
Postpone
This moment.
Not knowing,
The voice
The knower in me
This “I”
Is the illusion.

Where am I with this “I”
When there is nothing to be known
And no body is here
To know that.

In the background
Behind the voice,
Silence rests.

© Serena Devi, October 2010

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4 Comments Add yours

  1. ram0singhal says:

    divine Serena Devi…..out of mess age comes sage……out of chaos comes creations……..meeting of two opposites creates mirror….there are many dimensions and many sciences to become mirror….as you can not see your image…so is cosmic intelligence……..the desire to know ….who I am is the purpose of creation……water is zero….with heat becomes invisible and with cold becomes visible……God is zero….mirror is meeting of two opposites…..eternal soul …nature of god…..god only created eternity…..nature came as non eternal as a result of equal and opposite law…..so we are combination of eternal soul which is our emotional intelligence ….right brain…left hand……and non eternal body….logical intelligence …..left brain….right hand….that is the reason we feel eternal ..but as our inclination comes ti body ….fear comes in because we could not resolve the mystery of mirror…..once mirroring happens with transparent soul and non transparent body coming together to form mirror……that is the reason we fold our hands in prayer ….like Namaste….to become mirror…. fear to freedom

    Namaste is science of happiness…two opposites together …soul and body….so one should avoid shaking hands to greet ….until protocol demands …say Namaste….lot of science and wisdom…..

    once you become mirror….your original face will appear and that is I am the I am……creator of nothing to everything…

    that is you…..life is a journey and destination together….in drama you remain silent about your real identity……be inside one with God….and outside many with world in different roles…..

    love all…

    ram…

    p.s…..delighted to read your comments on Jean raffa blog …a fine wisdom writer like you…..love Khalil Gibran quote…

  2. Serena Devi says:

    Dear Ram, great soul… It is beyond words the joy rises inside when I read your words… there is a story in the place I breathe, still unfolding…, I love to share it with the friend one day…Divine speaks in your voice and there is no end in learning, merging the two rivers running through life… Aham Prema , Aham prema

    Journey passes through seasons, places, even time, till we arrive in timelessness and lose the recongination of Self, then we are the mirror and the eyes…. Thank you Ram, dear friend, your comments are the greatest companion for me, I am crossing dark water right now, test after test, Full and empty all the time…. My nature is passion of God, wisdom came after I completely burnt in love, still flames on a rise ..and I am truly grateful for all that is taking place, in this humble clay… In deep gratitude

    P.S Jeanie’s writing is balanced and full of truth, at the same time, her writng completes my poetry in a different form…

  3. ram0singhal says:

    divine…..difficult roles comes to fine artists only in the film…be neutral inside….and natural outside….yesterday was a different film…..may be it did not run….today is a film of happiness…breath to breath….

    a paragraph from God = childhood friend
    Love is the single method which can clean yourself without any washing techniques because once you will wash the untruth which was on your mirror only thing you will realize will be that you yourself are whiteness or to say happiness is your nature and a kind of whiteness which can never get dirty. and this is the state which many people call natural state.

    After applying the washing method with water you have to rinse the garments with more water to remove dirt as well as washing method or to say unlearn about the knowledge of washing.

    Now spreading the cloth in sun means that even your love has to go through fire (dark night of soul ) and still trust in yourself can make you myself. this time the whiteness which is absolute happiness will come and you will remain happy for ever.

    God is with you…hold inside Namaste….feel that way…pray one minute before sleep…one minute …when you wake up….

    eternity dancing on eternity like football……body is a medium….a car…a guru….but you are driver ….like lord Krishna…..eternal…..enjoy human experiences…

    bless you…my friend Serena Devi with happiness…..

    love all…

    ram

  4. Serena Devi says:

    There is no excuse … mind has a trap door and once in a while, I will fall down, laughing or crying… remembering what dear Ram shared in these wisdom words… geart soul… there is no hardness, only letting go… The wonderful presence of real friendship, is the greatest gifts of life, Thank you for feeling my heart and showing me my soul….

    Many blessing wrapped in light to you, to all, may we all dance around divine….

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