love begins with self

I used to seek love all over the map of earth. I was a beautiful and insecure girl looking to be loved and accepted and felt never satisfied. I  dated a lot of men between age of 30- 41, I tried short and long term relationships, it was at the edge of 40 that I…

Knowing 

​It comes as a dead sharp knife Through the dark night veil The unknowing. Is it the death or twilight Lightening of pain inside my heart, Must reach even deeper beyond hurt, even silence. Where part of me is buried  Without a gravestone, How can I come back from this,  my heart asks, The answer…

Life with no past, no furure

​I have been pondering on this thought and desire for a while, what if life is truly purposeless, what if nothing suppose to be planned and achieved. What if all we, humans will ever needed to do is to allow and be part of the nature, uncontrolled, wild, spontaneous, effortless and full living.  What if…