Let’s die

Let’s die to all small and big emotions of unsafety, loneliness, hurt and betrayal, failure and suffering.
There is no one’s fault, no image, no thought, no moment rises without being allowed, consciously or unconsciously by you.
Someone wants to wake up, it feels hard to sit still, accept and let silence nurture the exhausted self, the undeveloped and unloved parts of you. The desire for surrendering rise from your womb, the ache and longing for softness and receptivity, through time and space.

Who are you, within web of my body, are you Soul? Personality, a drop of a water from ocean of consciousness, all the undissolved parts waiting for alchemy process, to turn into love!! Who are you?
I call you, to come and sit with me, with gentleness of sky and patience of trees. Your presence is all I need, to find the strength to stand as whole in this unbearable pain and not runaway, not hide, not blame, just die in my own loving embrace and witness how the crack in my heart widens, moment by moment for the light to open up and show me the secret pathway to lifetimes patterns of self-sabotage and manipulation, fear of being authentic.
Sorrow is part of our breathing, it carves inside out, the passage for the flow of acceptance, self nourishing and love.

Let’ die to all stories of control and success,
To all false senses of security, belonging and power.
I want to die and at the same time give life to this intense feelings of discomfort, wow and wonder and extremely painful of maturity in my human form. When, moment by moment, waves take me from joy and playfulness, to disconnect and pressure, just to open a new gate and invite a deeper relation with all parts, as Who I AM.
Perhaps it is my last hope, or my first authentic act to retrieve all parts of my soul, in the present without fear of rejection and disapproval. It worth dying…Isn’t death also a beginning?
The deeper I look into the mirror of the world, the deeper I must travel to underworld of my feelings, meet the shadow and unloved and even lost parts of my soul. Some, I must bury with love and care, with patience and compassion, some, I have to sit, months, even years, for the invite… just to enter, just to accept, to open and allow healing… for self love to grow.
Can I ever travel beyond my stories? Some sounds like an old gramophone, pausing, rewinding on its own….I am tired of repetition of the sorrow stories, the abandon child and the hermit path.
Can I finally admit, surrender to life as it comes, let flow truly moves me forward. Can I enter this moment, virgin, no sense of good or bad, no need or desire to do or not to do.
Let’s die and open up to more love, fall into unknown and even when it feels my skin is burning and I can’t stand one more minute in front of the heat of transformation and illumination, lets stay still, while parts of me dying that no longer serving my growth.
Let die and accept this human experience as without this body, I could never know, how beautiful I can be, how hard the ground of life feels and how amazing standing up is. How much more I can delve in, to be more truthful, humble and sensitive to all.
Let die and accept the agony of lessons and changes and embrace the magical ecstatic moments of ecstasy, when everything becomes one, and feels I never left home.
Today, I crossed a deadly desert, still feel hot, confused, vulnerable, nowhere to hide, rest or wait for the next day. So, come and hold my hands, my light, my shadow, my ache in the chest, my forever lover, my breath of longing, come and stay with me, until I die completely, turn to ashes one more time, hopefully one last time, to lose all I have to lose. To become a place free of time and space,
For love to happens, over and over,
On blade of grass, on the edge of moon’s lips on skin of night,
In face of strangers, and silent imitation of birds,
Come and end me
To reborn out of my new heart
Into a boundless echo of Now.
Now or never,
I promise you,
our forever no ending love affair in Now.

Serena Devi

Moments

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Could we open an intimate conversation
Without fear or resistance
To reflect, to unfold, to accept and let go
To let our life become a vast, boundless and abundant
place to meet truth, love and peace, moment to moment.

Could we look into each other’s soul and before calling another “You”
before blame and guilt of our hidden humans’ wounds
move us to act premature, unfair and sometimes even ruthless, could we phase and own our experience, without making another responsible for what we feel, think and believe. Could we have the patience and compassion with ourselves, to stay in our own pain and suffering , wait and trust,
without knowing where this opening to our inner struggle will take us.

Feel what we feel in moments, pain, anger, frustration, whatever comes, we embrace without labeling or changing it. When YOU is nothing but another suppress part of ourselves, behind thousand veils of illusion, could we just trust our heart and let the moment lightens another dark corner of our endless abyss of soul, to discover, to love and accept, to transform.
Our willingness and faith is the remedy to heal our undeveloped parts, to live an authentic life, accepting our vulnerabilities, accepting our dark parts and allowing is an act of courage and empowerment. The new space helps life to flow, to wash and heal, to direct and create.
By changing our perception, we experience ourselves in a new way and our vibrations shift from low (struggle, anger, self- seeking) to higher (forgiveness, compassion and love).
Today, mirror showed me that if I stop jumping up and down, the reflection will also stops, our energy is a forever repeating blue sky, when clouds are removed, all we see is Blue/Sky/Within.

Serena Devi, 19 July 2014

A Mouthful bite

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In one mouthful bite
Oranges, wild berries and apples
With hint of cinnamon and chili.
I sense the crossing over heart-roaded
Where my life forced wide open
By the voice inside.

I sing my desires into simple poems,
Falling from ancient walls of feelings
Floating out into forever space of possibilities,
Surrendering to sweet and sour
tastes of their unknown future.
New frontiers merging
When inner weeping arises and blossoms
Into infinite beauty of a sincere heart
Going through seasons of life
Sometimes a joyful swim in stream of changes
Others, a long gaze beyond the hours of pain,
The unsettled and unclear duration of waiting;
The seed of happening,
Is there any end?!

Grief takes us, bite by bite
In fragile journey against
whirlpools and storms.
Can we spare any feelings, thoughts or values?
The double edge of soul, sharp and deadly like a new forged blade
Against all untrue,
still, silent and powerful.
I stand alone, in here
Between past and future,
In a single wave motion, free to breakaway
And full of holy desire to return;
Rest peacefully under a shade giving tree of earth,
Or fly above all roots and mountains,
Closer to home of stars and magical butterflies.

After a long dark longing,
The hummingbird innocent voice
is filled with silence and light.
What do we take to future, when every bit of life is holly?!

The taste; a tapping,
a scent of wood
A faint hum from distance,
A warm night, a sweet drink
And the boy who taught the lips the mystery of a kiss,
Thousand years ago and still….

I know the taste of life,
Fling with winds, intimacy with water,
Dance with cherries and write on summer leafs
The constant struggle between sweetness and bitterness
Of each bite. At the end
To find a way through against all differences
To sweetness of your own; the mystery,
the genius and the adventure of being who you are.
To walk humble and silent
To relate with all,
Dance as a dream
and blossoms
In what forever remains
On one mouthful bite of life.

© Serena Devi, April 2014

Spring 2014

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Do you feel the breathing of earth inside your hearts?

It feels heaven is growing inside our faith, into its glorious presence.
Let go of all controls, inner and outer and invite the songs of new order, new threshold is shaping… to live life… is to allow the flow of present.

Have unshakable faith in the truth that speaks in your hearts,
It is the time to step out of the TIME and SPACE;
we have been waiting for this moment. in fullness of our desires and senses; like a mother -to-be senses her oncoming labor… the rebirth of Soul of the soul, in physical and beyond.
“It is time” to stand with our feet on a sacred ground of earth, with heads in sky and hearts everywhere. 2014 is the beginning of a new portals of light and inspiration.
This is the beginning of silence, keep listening… keep still, in non-doing, be a Master of your destiny.

You are one with the source, keep listening and eventually the harmony between the creator and you, will play out the greatest miracle of your life. ” I AM”.

May we all be blessed with the gift of Truth.

In love

Serena Devi